Shakira's Deepest Secrets

hello readers ...  its was a looong 4 days weekend !! and i already feel bored on the 2nd day. Ive been planning to do lot of stuff since last week, but it seem all my plans dah kelaut....  This entry kinda disturbing for some people. I cant stop you from judging me , hate me or just simply love me :)  im currently listening to Sam Smith, stay with me & i feel kinda jiwang right now.  sekali dengar to his song, cm giler romantic mamat nih... but actually its all about 1 night stand-stuff  "this ain't love, its clear to see but darling please stay with me" the question is, will you spend a night with someone random ( read : stranger ) and fall in love so deep and want that person to stay forever by your side ??  maybe for Sam Smith, its a love at the first sex ( read : sight).  -______- worry not, we are not going to discuss about the " S" word :)  i had a conversation with a friend of mine quite a whil...

It has been a year since he choose his own path. From the very 1st day i knew about his "game" i tried my best to win him... but at the end of the day, ive giving up trying to safe the most precious thing in my life, my marriage. Demi Allah, i love him with all my blood in my veins but i believe Allah has a better plan for me. Yes, im heartbroken. Yes, i cried for days ( months )... but every beginning will have an end Maybe its not an "end" im hoping for our relationship, but who am i to argue to the Mighty Power Above?? Months has passed, i am a different person now ( I hope in a good way J ) i started to meet new people, do new stuff, learn new skills .... i feel my self growing... hopefully to become a better me. Along the way, there were ups & downs ... and im lucky enough to have few supportive friends that never once giving up on me. and somehow, i can feel myself open up to people around me. I dont know if im ready to allow a someone special t...

i gained 3kg and i have one big fat as*!! Yay, i know i suppose to be happy about it because ive been waiting (for years) to break the 50kg limit. Now im a proud 53kg-ian *evil laugh* Well, actually ive been experimenting with my body again. I just want to know how fast i can gain weight if i stop working out ( regularly) Ive been eating ALOT lately and sometimes i ate lunch twice or pretty late dinner. and today, i realise this is not the life i wanted I do enjoy eating all the junk ( junk in my definition is something not healthy like fried food, meaty , fatty stuff ect.  ) but i hate the guilty feeling after ive consume all the stuff. i feel like a fat-unattractive-flabby-woobly-shakira . I just give myself 3 weeks & im giving up the junk stuff... im back with grill stuff and those weird fruits veggie combinations i gotta work my as* out to get back my 6 packs that already turn into 1.. hahaha to my pants, dont worry.... you'll snuggle with me soon. It a fu...

It's so real. You are real. You touch my face and all the pain gone.  You hold my hand and kiss me on the forehead. Whisper to my ear how much you love me.  You hold me close to your body, I could feel your warm breath on my skin.   You look right into my eyes. Without you saying a word I know how much you love me.. There is no words but all of the loving gestures .  And there is a soft music playing on the background .  Your hand at my hips, and we started moving slowly following the rhythm. You are smiling at me. Your eyes still lock to mine.  Im weak.  I want to hold you tighter  I don't want to lose you.  But I don't know you You are not the familiar face ive seen before  But I think I'm falling for you. I hate the fact that I gonna wake up and will forget your face   I wanna stay with you  I wanna be here with you  I wanna be in your arms  But I know this is mere a dream  The feeling is temporary  Someh...

  well well well here I am today. Writing about Tinder  wait, to those yang still jakun pasal tinder, Lemme explain  Tinder is an App to meet people.  when you see people you like ( or rasa2 ngam je) swipe to the right (like) da kalau both party swipe to the right  ITS A MATCH  then korang boleh la start bersembang like tomorrow never end   gittew la tinder minder ni.  yes, yes,  i know, you all will say  "only desperate people will be on Tinder"  im partly agree with your opinion  because I was desperate too at one time. desperate to look for a new friend and who knows things will develop into something unimaginable  i was really optimistic about this tinder thingy.  for me, if im sincere people will be sincere to me too.  well, i was almost wrong (emphasis : Almost)  em, i met few reasonably good people and some are just want to take advantage on peop...

Selamat pagi uols ...  Semalam I had a conversation with a friend pasal perempuan merokok ....  No matter how hot the girl is, he will turned off once she lit a cigarette ...  As if all the good things in that girl gone, just because she is a smoker...  Em...  At first I thought it's another gender bias "discussion". As usual, I'll back up la kaum sejenis (even im not a smoker pun). I asked him, why men smoke and still consider as a good person, while when a  girl smoke, automatically she is bad, ?! Maybe when you look at the girl smoking, first thing that comes in your mind is : perempuan liar ni...  For me it's not fair to judge a person based on the exterior.  I met few acquaintances who happen to be a smoker (pompuan) and they are very decent people. They smoke for the same reason as why men smoke... Sebab nak release stress.. They are not perempuan liar yang duk clubbing all the time . They are professional people.  Kalu tengok kat negar...

Introvert : Contrary to what most people think, an introvert is not simply a person who is shy. Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people. and yes, im an introvert person. I may seem quite a chatty person.... but actually i am not. Most of my words are stuck in my thought and never come out. But, when Im getting excited or too nervous i can continue to speak (non stop) using my gibberish language . Real messy sentence with the choices of weird words. So, for those who just getting to know me, I hope i didnt make you think im having some sort of language difficulties.... Im totally understand what you are saying, you dont have to speak to me in slow mo like im a retard bitch.. (-_____-) Tell you what, Im not open myself to many people. So, if im being open with you, means you are special to me. understand? Im a listener.... People may find me boring because I'll be in the room with the crowds ...